In My Somnolence I've Just Realized

In a very competitive world, people struggle just to reach the top of the social pyramid. It is natural for people to crave for what we desire and in order to achieve our goals we strive hard to earn the thing so-called MONEY. MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, must be funny in a rich man’s world.

 It would be an utter lie if I say that money is insignificant, because nowadays nothing’s free except to dream. Food, shelter, clothes, all are only accessible if and only if you have money. Let us not close our minds and accept the fact that besides God, love and family, money is also a crucial part of living.

I have always dream of having a luxurious home. For a simple human like me not being fed using a silver spoon, such dream would be an unreachable star. That’s why I started dreaming, dreaming of becoming a famous couturier. A designer who will be dressing demigods and will be envied by everyone else who have dreams like mine.  Yes, I am ambitious, but I know I have it in me(even though that’s what everybody says). It is nice to think that everybody who will wear your garments will have a taste of heaven. It is nice to think that a single piece of your haute dress will cost billions of dollars even though it will lose its fashion sense in six months. It is nice to think that if you have such a talent-demanding career then you can have everything in this world. But then again it is only what I think and not what my parents do.

From becoming a couturier to an accountant. From dressing demigods to solving accounting problems. From haute to debits and credits. From my own clothing line to my own auditing firm. And now I’m stressed. Accounting and designing are two entirely different things. Numbers were never my friends and now I have to build my future together with it. Why and How it happened? I don’t really know. What I know is that in order to become a designer it will require high-financial effort or a miracle. Then we are back on the issue of MONEY. I have siblings to consider and my parents can’t afford my demands. Yes, I am practical and I know it’s the right thing to do(even though it doesn’t look like I have any choice).

Up until now I’m still not sure about the roads I’m taking. However, if someone would offer me the support to continue my ambition, I will accept it right away, but for now I’ll try to work hard to pass my present undertaking. I have all the time I need and I'm very thankful to be able to continue my schooling.


Sacrificing all my ambitions are not easy and following the path of what my parents want me to take is also a herculean labor. Many can relate to what I feel and many might criticize me for being expressive about it. But, I do believe that an end of a universe is also the birth of another one. I may not succeed in this lifetime, but I'm very optimistic of what future has installed for me. To be ambitious is my stepping stone and to be practical is my virtue.